Transformsters

Just finished my 2 hours of A math, E math, Physics and Chem tuition... was not too bad today...

Braindead now and I really do not know how to handle my day tomorrow... It's like super difficult to concentrate in class, my mind just cannot think. It thinks of other stuff instead...

Was reading my SS textbook yesterday and found the chapter where it talks about Singapore being a nation with religious freedom. But it kind of struck me in another sense. I think its just me being super paranoid... pray for me thanks=D

The past racial riots in Singapore was sparked by the clashes in religion. We are commisioned to reach out to people and tell them about Christ. But, how are we going to do so? I tried it last year with my old classmates and was very discouraged at one time.

That time, there was the class BBQ thingy last year but I decided to go for YM instead. After that, when I got home, my friend (who went for the BBQ) told me that people there said very nasty things...

"That YQ arh... how come suddenly so Christian-ish?"
"Yah lor, last time he was like us like that. Now he become so holy and religious... Lame"
and etc.
P.S Names have been left out of it, partly 'cos I think you all don't know them and secondly, it makes me really angry to type their names out and thirdly, no matter how sadistic they are, their identity must be protected.

I was like super discouraged and everyone started being hostile to me. Honestly, they were making fun of whatever I did the past two years... so I was pretty used to that. It was just that they totally challenged me about this and... I could not go on with it.

I fell into the trap the devil specially placed. Haha, you can go check out my blog, the only post so far that is not coloured at all...

This year, I guess you all remember, when Josh or Clara (I forgot who) asked us for our new year resolutions, I said that I wanted to witness to my class. It sounded stupid and retarded after that. So far, I have not stepped out yet... Ok lah, personally I was like spiritually dry and I felt very distant from God. Can pray for us all too, that we can have a closer walk with God than ever before. We live for an audience of One (that is God) but so far, I had been living my life such that I wanted to feel accepted and I could not let go of the worldly stuff. (I have no idea why I am admitting this...)

Sian, feeling very emo now... (Still praying about this) I really hope that God will just sweep through my sch... Revival only happens when we honestly hunger for more of God... It reminds me of the chorus of "Fall In This Place"

Come, Holy Spirit
Fall in this place
I need more and more of You
Fill me again with the power of Your Spirit
Lord I'm crying out for more and more of You

Do we really want more of God? Or more of the worldly stuff that somehow we cannot let go unless God helps us? I do not know about you guys... Deep down, I really wanted my life to change to be more like Jesus, but a lot of times I get attracted by the worldly "cheap thrills"

(This is seriously a confessing spree...)

I really have no idea what am I doing in my life...

God, I pray right now that You would come into this place. Rain your fire again, oh God. Jesus, I confess my sins now and in Your name I am free. Jesus, I pray that You would grant me the heart for my class, regardless of what they think of me. Jesus, give me strength to overocme any worldly addictions that comes my way. Thank You. In the powerful name of Jesus, amen.